So, i was in line at the bank cashing our Stimulus check and this guy walks up behind me and ask’s “Is this the back of the line”? I said “No, this is the front of the line and we’re all standing backwards”..
I dont get out much cuz of my health, the pain, the anemia, and now the 3rd virus that China has released to my country COVID-19 so, i may have been to rough on the guy at the bank haha..Anyways, Here i am family! After all these months, seems like years since i last wrote, iv had a “transfusion” a few weeks ago, i needed blood, im apparently bleeding a tad quicker then i can produce it so, im sure transfusions are in my cards, especially if i keep staying at or below 7.1 on my Hemoglobin (this last time), it kept going down so we handled it. And boy do they make you feel better! Like nite/day! I even thanked the prior owner who donated it! I just wish i can get a grip on pain management, like you all know, my Naproxens have been very good to me thru all my prior surgeries, tumor pain, or those deep nerve pains i use to get back before they pulled out that what, “8cm” Mel monster out my right lung, but now there failing to work on my growing Sigmoid tumor wich is giving us the middle finger in CT scan photos, last scan 2 months ago, it measured 5.0, now its 7.1, just shy of 3 inches, 2.1cm growth in 3 months time, try havin’ fun with that in your Sig.. Oh! But! All other tumors have shrank in half! Ill show you my Pathos Report on separate post, atleast something positive is FINALLY happening!! Ive been offered opiate type meds by my Palliative doc but always passed on them, i think its time to try something, ill see him next Wednesday during my infusion, hes been great, really trying his best to hone in on different medications to relieve the constipation caused by the damn monster thats road blocking my waste tunnel! Cenna and Milk of Magnesia (this will be #4), the pain has made me cry a few times, it just busted out of me like the Hoover Dam, heating pads, electric messager, ice packs help but, its all in my head i think, the monster leaves when it wants to leave…Now, the surgery card “is” in my oncologists back pocket but, as he put it with my last tumor, “I’d rather have your therapy (ox40/icos) do the work and not cut you open every time”….I get what he’s saying and on paper thats great but, in real time hes not the one feeling this demon eat my guts either. He knows how i feel & has faith i can endure it just a little longer which i think i can, its become my usual norm, including my last bulging painful tumor on my side that was finally taken out, im used to “taking one for the team” just to get to my next scan and see what size he is, then maybe i can have a Quality Of Surgery. My next scan is June 3rd so, fingers crossed..
Well ya’all, i wrote a book and i should have some courtesy and leave some of MRF’s storage available for the next person, I love you all and hope your stable at the very least, im gunna browse & catch up, hope to be back soon, i can never promise these days….Mike PS: and thank you to the person who reached out awhile ago, i forgot your name, my wife said it but since then its sliped my mind, always feel free to write her for an update, it makes us both feel good at the right time..
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