Josh

Oh maaaaaan. 🙁   I don't even know what to say. This sucks. I pray for peace for him and his family. 

This is hard to read. I wish Josh and his family peace and love during this time. I wish there was more time for all our friends that are seeing the end of the road… lots lots more time.

I am lost for words so sad heartbroken, Josh has been always on my mind how he is . Reading this is so hard. I pray and wish I could give Josh a hug. Lost for words right now. 

Scooby ❤️

This makes me so sad. I will always remember Josh for his unending optimism and fight. 

Oh, my sweet Joshie.  I will hold you in my heart….always.  c

I have been keeping an eye out for updates on him. This is not the update we wanted to hear…..

Thank you for the update but the news is beyond sad.   I so badly wanted him, as all others on here, to conquer this disease.  Josh's soul and spirit were so infectious – I just wanted to get on the front-line and fight with him and for him.     Prayers to all.    

Thank you for letting us know. This news is hard. Josh gave it his all. Prayers. I can't look here for awhile. Jake had good scans. We are on a "melanoma break". Normal for a time….thank you for all the support. I will keep you in my prayers. 

too sad.

Thank you, Nancy.  I, too, became a bit of a stalker and sent his wife, Gina, a private message asking if they could possibly give an update.  Now I know why I haven't heard back.  I'm sure they are simply soaking up as much family time as they can possibly get.  

Josh, if you happen to read this, know that I am wrapping you and your family in cyber hugs.  You've always been such an inspiration to those here, and just a great example of a friend, husband and father.  Be strong, my friend.

Josh has been the most amazing warrior. Truly an inspiration to all here.  Damn I hate this insidious disease.  This is just too hard to take.  Thank you Josh for your love and support, and showing us what backbone really is.  May the force be with you always.

"a hui ho" my friend

Gary

So upsetting to read this.  I pray for peace during this final stage surrounded by those he loves.  He really gave so much to everyone on this forum by sharing his journey and being a cheerleader with all his encouragement for others.

i know that he will get on so well with my husband, Juan, when they meet in heaven.

Maria

I have no words to express how sad I am… I love everyone here, but Josh has a special place in my heart…. I was coming here every single day in hope of reading something positive from Josh, I so did not expect this…..

Take care everybody,

Patrisa

May love and light surround Josh and his family at this difficult time. 

Certiainly not the news i was hoping to read…..i kept hoping that TIL was working and he was home getting stronger…..I am so sad for him and his family.  It was obvious from all his posts that was a devoted Dad and husband……just too heartbreaking.

So much sad news lately….jamie, and now this josh update.

My heart breaks for their families..

I can't regroup since I read this post, I am heartbroken… Josh means so much to me, I can't explain it, but his soul spoke to me, I felt his hope, his fear, his goodness, his enormous love for his family… 

I feel so bad knowing that he is where no one can imagine himself beeing… Praying he doesn't feel lonely and scared and gets to enjoy his wife and kids for as long as possible…

Heartbroken….

Patrisa

I hadnt been on these boards since my husband passed in January, but something made me check today. I am so sorry to ehar this about Josh, I wanted him to be a success story. He has given so much to folks here and his presence will be sorely missed. 

This just sucks.

So it has taken me a whole day to gather my thoughts enough to post this. Obviously Josh meant a lot to alot of us here. I would like to share what he meant to me. When I first started this journey 4 years ago now, I was just like all the rest of you, scared shitless! I am a mother to 4 boys, young at the time. I am a internet junkie, meaning I research everything. Once I saw the statistics, the old statistics, I thought for sure I was going to die in the next couple of years. I was given the option of Interferon or a trial. I was so scared of taking Ipi so I was just about ready to go with Interferon when I found this board. I read some amazing stories about Immunotherapy and was sold but the two people that gave me tremendous hope was Josh and Celeste. I even told their stories to my onc. Celeste was obvious because she has a wealth of knowledge but Josh, I don't even know what it was about him. I guess I could tell that he was a genuinely good guy. When Artie started progressing this board of people just became so strong together and I think Josh had to do with that. When Artie passed it was so hard on all of us but especially Josh. After that he seemed to kinda step into Artie's role a little bit in that he was always posting great things to people. Which then he got so close with Paul. Paul and Josh were both great guys and everyone loved to read their posts. I think Josh lost a lot of hope when his dear friend Paul passed. That too was hard on all of us. Now to think about our beloved Josh in this same situation just absolutely breaks my heart as I can see it does all of yours as well. I know personally this has been a punch in the face to me because I just hit the 4 year mark and I have allowed myself to think maybe I've beat this for good. Then I think about Josh and he thought the same thing, until it returned with a vengance. I know I will sure be thinking about our good lost friends every day as I make choices in my life to be the best I can be. I hope Josh is able to hear how much he means to all of us before he goes. My life has been tremendously touched by someone I've never even met and he probably has no idea. I will pray for his wife and his 2 kids, his brother and everyone else as I'm sure he has left an impact on many peoples lives. As I write this Artie's picture is on the side of the page and I'm sure he's looking down on Josh right now, just waiting to see his good friend again. I feel this is some kind of a sign, as I have never seen Artie's on here!

Rachel

I hate this news. I know I was touched by Josh and his journey, and I don't think anyone in this group can say otherwise. He's an amazing soul, and my heart hurts for his family. 

Lauren

No words. Everyone has already said it all. Deeply saddened. 

I've been trying to stay off the forum since for a while, but something made me check this morning.  I think since my husband's scans are in two days and I've always linked him with Josh (very similar cases), that I was ready to hear how Josh had just rocked the new treatment and was making a full comeback.  I always check for Josh updates before anything else.  I'm devastated to hear the news about Josh.   I'm crying for him, his family and all of us right now. It's so frickin' ridiculous.  I don't get it.  I'm so sorry Josh, it's just not fair.  We just lost my brother a month ago, another Marine.  Semper fi.  Gosh darn it (insert other words in here), this sucks. 

I am heartbroken.  I pray for his family to have peace.

xo Jen