This is my first time posting. In Sept. 2019, I had a stage 1a melanoma removed from my right forearm. All of my skin checks have been great since. But this past November, I noticed a change in a little light pinkish brown mole that has been on top of my foot for a long time. In about the second week of Nov, I got stung by a few ants on the top of that foot but don’t recall getting one on that mole. My mom had just died and I was so caught up in the grief, I just didn’t pay good attention. Anyway, about a few days later, I woke in the night scratching that foot hard with my other foot. I just thought “It’s those bites” and they calmed down in a little while. Then the very end of November I noticed one spot still remained and took a picture up close with my phone and the little mole looked red and swollen with a little red scab in the middle. I looked up an old picture of the mole from May to compare. You couldn’t even see the mole any more although it didn’t seem much bigger. I called my dermatologist and the soonest I could get in was on January 5. Over the course of December, the scab fell off on it’s own and it slowly shrunk nearly back to normal except it still was a little darker pink. When I showed the progress pics to my dermatologist on Jan 5 she decided to immediately do a shave biopsy. I knew that was probably coming. I asked her if she thinks it’s concerning and she said “yes” and then went on to say that she “would rather send it and hear that it’s nothing rather than ignore it”. I have been ok sometimes, but my panic is just getting the best of me. I can’t help but thinking that I had to wait a month and now it’s probably really bad. Or jumping to the worst possible melanoma diagnosis and I’m going to die soon. My anxiety is through the roof lately as it is since my mother died. She literally fell over dead from a pulmonary embolism. I just feel like death is everywhere and keep thinking that I just KNOW this place on my foot is bad. It’s nothing like my other melanoma…it was a flat mole that darkened very slowly over a couple of years so that I didn’t even notice how much it had changed. I don’t know if this place on my foot is due to scratching and irritating it or if it’s just a weird, fast morphing growth. Has anyone else had an experience with a similar place that was inflamed and then regressed? I know I’m kind of rambling and all over the place, I’m just so scared.
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