Today was a good day! Not because anything changed with me, but because I let myself have a really good day! I spent time with family, took a short road trip, and for several hours I "didn't have" cancer. Don't get me wrong this wasn't denial, this was simply embracing life and living in the moment rather than the future or the past.
I'm sure many of us have these days and this isn't something novel but I think its a good reminder that we CAN have these days. In fact, I want to have many more days just like this! I want to harness this in some way and be more present and in the moment every single day. In many ways I believe this is how we beat cancer, perhaps in the most important way this is how we beat cancer. I have wrestled with the idea of physically beating cancer but what if nothing else changed? What if I became NED and I learned nothing from it? What if I went back to the usual grind of stress, living to work, and deprioritizing the most important things in life…I will have learned nothing from this. No way amigos, that isn't for me.
If this teaches me anything, it absolutely has to be that everything in my life needs to be repriotized. No more guilt for taking time for simple things, no stress about that work project that "must" get done right this second and NOT doing it right now, no hard feelings because I wanted to hang out and stare at some trees, or birds flittering around, talking to people a little longer, or just listening to the world around me. Live, live right now in this moment and be glad you did!
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