Hi, I’m going through a similar thing. My mum has just recently been diagnosed with stage IV melanoma, with mets to her bone, lung and potentially other parts of her bod. I think I’m still going through a process of grief, and mourning our old cancer-free life, there seems something cosmically unfair about me at 17 having to worry about the death of my mum. However everybody’s life is coloured by personal struggle, this is simply ours. My mum hasn’t started treatment yet, we’re still thinking about this as the start of a marathon, and I don’t know what the prognosis for your mum is or if lots of the options are exhausted. But I try to find solace in the day-to-day and her company. She’s here now, don’t worry about tomorrow or in an hour. Anxiety is holding you back from enjoying whatever time you have left with her, and the last thing a parent would want is for their illness to burden their child. I say this partly as a message to myself as well as you but we’re in a tough position, and one that we just have to power through. We’ll all be fine by the end of this, but I personally (and I’m sure you do too) aim to honour my mother during this time and for the rest of my life if she can’t be there with me. The best way we can honour our parent’s memory is by being successful and thriving, of course cry, vent out your frustration and let out your emotions, but you’re not broken and you will be fine.
