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I was going to post an update on how my partner and I were doing after all these years.  And then thought, well I doubt if I would be remembered anyway.  So I deleted the post and was about to log out when I saw your name.  I am amazed at your strength at being able to still be here through all the heartaches and memories of people.  It seems being apart of this community also gives so much.  Remembered or not, I want to thank you for helping me.  At a horrible dark time when I and my partner were both diagnosed with mm.  Your empathy and kindness really shone through for me.  I probably spent more time at the dark side as It was pretty much all I could handle to take me somewhere else apart from the fear and hospitals.  Yourself, BillMf1, Fountainhead, Eeghads and was it tinarox, Dan and even that smelly old toothless uncle phil  that everyone loved to hate.  Sounds like some old 80's sit-com.   Sorry I might have forgotten or changed some of the names slightly due to mid life senility.  But I know coming here and to the darkside were what got me through.  It wasn't always love and empathy, on the good days it was bickering joking and slinging mud around the monkey cage which was exactly what I needed.  I felt like there was a real hole left when I went looking for  the darkside and found it gone. 

So I find myself here again  with some well overdue scans coming up for my partner.   Overdue due to the amazing blessing of the birth of our fist child last year. Now the fear is stronger than ever, we have more than just my partner and I to be strong for now.  

I just wanted to tell you that you made a difference to me and I hope you are lifted a little from knowing this.

I was going to post an update on how my partner and I were doing after all these years.  And then thought, well I doubt if I would be remembered anyway.  So I deleted the post and was about to log out when I saw your name.  I am amazed at your strength at being able to still be here through all the heartaches and memories of people.  It seems being apart of this community also gives so much.  Remembered or not, I want to thank you for helping me.  At a horrible dark time when I and my partner were both diagnosed with mm.  Your empathy and kindness really shone through for me.  I probably spent more time at the dark side as It was pretty much all I could handle to take me somewhere else apart from the fear and hospitals.  Yourself, BillMf1, Fountainhead, Eeghads and was it tinarox, Dan and even that smelly old toothless uncle phil  that everyone loved to hate.  Sounds like some old 80's sit-com.   Sorry I might have forgotten or changed some of the names slightly due to mid life senility.  But I know coming here and to the darkside were what got me through.  It wasn't always love and empathy, on the good days it was bickering joking and slinging mud around the monkey cage which was exactly what I needed.  I felt like there was a real hole left when I went looking for  the darkside and found it gone. 

So I find myself here again  with some well overdue scans coming up for my partner.   Overdue due to the amazing blessing of the birth of our fist child last year. Now the fear is stronger than ever, we have more than just my partner and I to be strong for now.  

I just wanted to tell you that you made a difference to me and I hope you are lifted a little from knowing this.

I was going to post an update on how my partner and I were doing after all these years.  And then thought, well I doubt if I would be remembered anyway.  So I deleted the post and was about to log out when I saw your name.  I am amazed at your strength at being able to still be here through all the heartaches and memories of people.  It seems being apart of this community also gives so much.  Remembered or not, I want to thank you for helping me.  At a horrible dark time when I and my partner were both diagnosed with mm.  Your empathy and kindness really shone through for me.  I probably spent more time at the dark side as It was pretty much all I could handle to take me somewhere else apart from the fear and hospitals.  Yourself, BillMf1, Fountainhead, Eeghads and was it tinarox, Dan and even that smelly old toothless uncle phil  that everyone loved to hate.  Sounds like some old 80's sit-com.   Sorry I might have forgotten or changed some of the names slightly due to mid life senility.  But I know coming here and to the darkside were what got me through.  It wasn't always love and empathy, on the good days it was bickering joking and slinging mud around the monkey cage which was exactly what I needed.  I felt like there was a real hole left when I went looking for  the darkside and found it gone. 

So I find myself here again  with some well overdue scans coming up for my partner.   Overdue due to the amazing blessing of the birth of our fist child last year. Now the fear is stronger than ever, we have more than just my partner and I to be strong for now.  

I just wanted to tell you that you made a difference to me and I hope you are lifted a little from knowing this.